I'm a Monster.

It always seems like people grow up rather quickly, after a certain point. It's no longer about taking it easy, or enjoying simple pleasures... like curling up in bed and watching Friends (which I NEED to start, btw). It's about partying, drinking and the other thing that happens to ruin your voice. No, it's not the fact that this stuff happened when I came back to good ol' school. It's the fact that this break, it seems like everyone is very eager to try some things. Quit fitting into a mold. Impress some people, and don't be afraid of what people think of you... after all, who the f**k cares about what others think. If you don't like me, that's too bad. I say this, only because it's like we're afraid of not fitting into a certain teenager mold. We MUST do what teenagers do, right? Now, I have a lot on my plate, but I certainly look forward to days in my week when I can laugh and chill. Going to Target on Sundays? That equals a surprising amount of stress relief... chilling downtown? Same. You know, stuff like that... Non-teenager stuff. I guess I just don't fit into that cookie cutter teenage mold. And that's fine. But, wait a little to grow up? Yeah.

This break was indeed one of the craziest I have ever experienced. Hardly any sleep, missing my school, and the promise it provides to do whatever I want, dealing with all sorts of issues, and reevaluating where I want to go in life. Do I want to be a journalist? Sure. I'd love to. But I'd also love to all other sorts of things... Let me just say: you think journalism is unsteady? Ummm, yeah. lol. BTW, I LOVE acting. I've always considered it to be something I enjoy. Last week, I tried out for anchor for my college TV news program... I didn't make it, but that's alright... I'm barely a freshman and there are plenty of opportunities. This weekend, I'm trying out for my school plays, and hopefully I have some luck there.

I'm caught up between missing friends back home, and looking forward to what I'm going to accomplish this year. Believe me, you don't want sadness and anxiety at the same time! GAH! haha. But in all seriousness, I'm SUPER excited at what I've laid out this year, and hopefully by next New Year, I can say: "Damn, my year was amazing." Oh, yeah, and schoolwork is a bi**h. I like it, it's just a lot of work... but what else is new?

We all want to be something, right? Sure we do. Just some of us lose the motivation, after constantly being told we can't. I got news for you. You can. It's a little bit frustrating to always be told, "maybe you should take the safe route." Life isn't about safety. Life is about taking risks. The biggest risk is taking none at all. Yes, I actually do have an idea of what I want to do in life. Yes, these are all my decisions. And yes, I'm content with the idea of not knowing where I'll be in five years. It's ok, trust me. ANNNNDDDD>.... there. I'm done. For those lucky souls who actually read this, thanks... you've gotten things off my chest! And I don't usually do these kind of blog posts... but I need to speak! haha. Thanks.

"Whenever someone tells you you can't be who you are, or you can't chase your dreams... you remind them that you're a Monster, and you can do whatever the fuck you want." - Lady G.